a better son / daughter

그런 아침들이 있지

온 몸이 마비된 듯 움직일 수 없고

정신은 멀쩡한데 눈이 떠지지 않고

마치 거대한 무언가가 폐를 짓누르고 있는 것처럼

숨조차 쉴 수가 없는...

제발 이번엔 누군가 날 좀 구해달라고 간절히 빌지만

널 깨우는 건 또다시 미친 듯 화가 나서

이번엔 그냥 넘어가지 않을 거라 소릴 질러대는 엄마의 전화

그럼 넌 알았다고, 당신이 섬기는 악마한테 날 넘기라고

하지만 당신 영혼은 결코 신께 구원받지 못할 거라고

미친듯이 퍼붓곤 전화를 끊어버리지만

이내 널 화나게 하는 것들로 인해 불편해진 마음으로

다시 침대 속으로 기어들어가 지난날의 꿈을 꾸지

거리낌 없이 온 마음을 활짝 열고

모든 병약한 것들과 모든 죽어가는 것들을 

있는 그대로의 모습으로 사랑하던 시절

더러 성이 날 땐

빌어먹을만치 제대로 분노하던 시절

친구들과 함께 노래를 부르고

그들 모두가 너를 사랑하던

그 시절의 꿈을

그러나 나락은 언제나 깎아지를 듯하고

좋은 것들은 그래봤자 싸구려인 주제에

도통 손에 잡히지 않아 너의 애를 태우지, 그래도

넌 싸워낼 거야

이겨낼 거야

필요하다면 그런 척이라도 할 거야

웃는 얼굴로 직장에 나타날 거고

나아질 거야

현명해질 거야

더 성숙한 인간이,

더 나은 딸이,

더 나은 아들이 될 거야

정말 좋은 친구가 될 거야

넌 기민하고, 주의 깊고, 상처를 받더라도 낙관하며

모든 벗들을 웃음으로 포용하고

진심으로 귀 기울이고, 정직하고, 용감하며, 근사하고, 아름다운 사람이 될 거야

넌

행복해질 거야

널 구하러 함선이 오고 있어

넌 연약하지만

저기 울부짖는 협곡 아래로 몸을 던지지 않을 거야

너의 함선이 마침내 도착할 때까지는

약한 그대, 결코 항복하지 않을 거야

그댄 싸워낼 거야

저 모든 것들에 맞서

싸워내고 말 거야

Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move 

Awake but cannot open my eyes 

And the weight is crushing down on my lungs 

I know I can't breathe 

And I hope someone will help me this time 

And your mother's still calling you insane and high

Swearing it's different this time 

And you tell her you give in to the demons that possess her 

And that God never blessed her insides 

Then you hang up the phone 

And feel badly for upsetting things 

Crawl back into bed to dream of a time 

When your heart was open wide 

And you loved things just because 

Like the sick and the dying 

And sometimes when you're on 

You're really fucking on 

And your friends they sing along 

And they love you 

But the lows are so extreme 

That the good seems fucking cheap 

And it teases you for weeks in its absence 

But you'll fight and you'll make it through 

You'll fake it if you have to 

And you'll show up for work with a smile 

And you'll be better 

And you'll be smarter 

And more grown up 

And a better daughter or son 

And a real good friend 

And you'll be awake 

You'll be alert 

You'll be positive though it hurts 

And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends 

And you'll be a real good listener 

You'll be honest 

You'll be brave 

You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful 

You'll be happy 

Your ship may be coming in 

You're weak but not giving in 

To the cries and the wails of the valley below 

And your ship may be coming in 

You're weak but not giving in 

And you'll fight it 

You'll go out fighting all of them 

Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move 

Awake but cannot open my eyes 

And the weight is crushing down on my lungs 

I know I can't breathe 

And I hope someone will help me this time 

And your mother's still calling you insane and high

Swearing it's different this time 

And you tell her you give in to the demons that possess her 

And that God never blessed her insides 

Then you hang up the phone 

And feel badly for upsetting things 

Crawl back into bed to dream of a time 

When your heart was open wide 

And you loved things just because 

Like the sick and the dying 

And sometimes when you're on 

You're really fucking on 

And your friends they sing along 

And they love you 

But the lows are so extreme 

That the good seems fucking cheap 

And it teases you for weeks in its absence 

But you'll fight and you'll make it through 

You'll fake it if you have to 

And you'll show up for work with a smile 

And you'll be better 

And you'll be smarter 

And more grown up 

And a better daughter or son 

And a real good friend 

And you'll be awake 

You'll be alert 

You'll be positive though it hurts 

And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends 

And you'll be a real good listener 

You'll be honest 

You'll be brave 

You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful 

You'll be happy 

Your ship may be coming in 

You're weak but not giving in 

To the cries and the wails of the valley below 

And your ship may be coming in 

You're weak but not giving in 

And you'll fight it 

You'll go out fighting all of them 

a better son / daughter // rilo kiley

translated by lonegunman

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